Monday, August 25, 2014


Started a new job.

First thing I did was hang this over my desk.

Eminem's music has been getting me though a really dark time these last few weeks.

That and watching shows about ghosts for some reason is helping me feel better.

I think I like hanging out with dead people just like me.
The songs Mosh and Beautiful Pain have been keeping me feeling like there is a point to all of this shit we call life. 
Today I thought I would just fucking die, just drop down dead because I had nothing left to give.
Then I put Eminem on in my headphones, and I kept Beautiful Pain on a loop and just kept it moving.

When I got to work
I decided to reward myself
for still being alive
by buying a new Eminem shirt
so I can wear my heart
on my sleeve.


Then I saw the good news.


Thank you, God.

Come along
follow me
as I lead through the darkness
As I provide
just enough spark
that we need to proceed
Carry on,

give me hope,
give me strength
Come with me

and I won't steer you wrong
Put your faith

and your trust
as I guide us
through the fog
To the light

at the end of the tunnel
We gonna fight,

we gonna charge,
we gonna stomp,
we gonna march
Through the swamp,

we gonna mosh
through the marsh
Take us right

through the doors (c'mon)

All the people

up top on the side
and the middle
Come together

lets all bomb and swamp
just a little
Just let it gradually build

from the front to the back
All you can see

is a sea of people
some white and some black
Don't matter what color,

all that matters
we gathered together
To celebrate for the same cause

don't matter the weather
If it rains let it rain,

yea the wetter the better
They ain't gonna stop us

they can't,
we stronger now
more than ever
They tell us no
we say yea,
they tell us stop
we say go
Rebel with a rebel yell,

raise hell
we gonna let em know

- Eminem

I can feel the heat rising

Everything is on fire
Today's a painful reminder of why
We can only get brighter
The further you put it behind ya
And right now I'm on the inside
Lookin out, cause
Standing in the flames

It's a beautiful kinda pain
Setting fire to yesterday
Find the light, find the light, find the light.

Beautiful Pain